i carry you like a suitcase full of boulders across the river
i carry you like a shotgun aimed for destruction, just pull the trigger
i carry you like the weight on every shoulder i’ve ever cried on
i carry you like a baby on a lonely doorstep with a lonely light on
 
i could lay you down for good but i am not that brave
so i carry you all the way to my grave
 
i carry you like a soldier out of the fire, still in the war
i carry you like an umbrella full of holes so when it rains, it pours
i carry you like a dancer spinning in circles to silent music
i carry you like a memory, don’t want to see it, don’t want to lose it
 
i carry you like a letter i keep on penning, but never sending
i carry you like a cancer, ever growing, never-ending
i carry you like the genome across the ages, the past has spoken
i carry you down a hallway full of photographs, the frames all broken

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some days it seems like the rain ain’t gonna let up
it keeps coming down harder and harder
some days it seems that i’ll never find my way back to your well,
well i hope that thought don’t hold water
 
i know you’re not dead, but it seems that way sometimes
inside my head
i know you need space, but please don’t forget my face
i won’t forget you
 
most days it seems like I’m finally smiling on the inside
and i wish you could be happy for me
even though i don’t feel blue, all I can do is think of you
my smiles make me guilty

i picture the scene between me and you
sitting motionless in this living room
it’s a terrible thing to test the strength of blood-glue
but i don’t wanna lie, guess it’s best to tell the truth
 
i ain’t sorry for being what i am
i am sorry if it’s not what you had planned
we learn to hate the things that we don’t understand
i am what i am
 
i picture the pain in your eyes as i confess
but the fact remains i gotta get this off my chest
hope it won’t stain when we start to clean the mess
i fear the worst but i am hoping for the best

i’ve had enough, enough
 
your daddy used to drink he used push you around
chase your little sisters, knock your mama down
he would stay out late driving out to the bar
you were just a little boy, oh, he made you wait in the car
 
it’s in your system now, it’s in your blood
it’s an addiction you can’t get enough
need intervention cause i’m starting to see
you’re starting to love that bottle way more than you love me
and i’ve had enough, enough
 
my mama couldn’t sleep, she worked hard to pay the bills
and one day she just gave up and give in to the sleeping pills
yeah, they closed her eyes – yes, they kept her eyes shut
i was just a little girl the day my mama never woke up
 
it’s in my system now, it’s in my blood
it’s an addiction i can’t get enough
need intervention cause i’m starting to see
these tiny little pills, oh, they’ve got a big hold on me
and i’ve had enough, enough
 
we started out wrong, we started out behind
but i will not pass this on to no child of mine
we will do it together, babe, or i will do it alone
there will be no addiction welcome in my home
 
it’s in our systems, i know, it’s in our blood
it’s an addiction but i’ve had enough
need intervention cause i’m starting to see
it’s time to break the cycle, oh, before it breaks me
break it with love, with love