one drop of water and the lake still shakes stomping my boots but the mud's still caked i gotta find a way to let this go a pile of bricks sticking to my chest weighing me down they will not decongest i tried to kill this ache but still it grows how do i breathe now there's no air in my lungs how do i climb down this ladder's out of rungs how do i slow down when all i ever did was all i ever did was run should i be drinking now, well probably not order a whiskey, cause it's worth a shot maybe i'll drown this fear before it drowns me trouble with worry is it won't get gone cause you can never put your finger on something you feel but you can not see one drop of water and the lake still shakes
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*co-written with Veronica May (music) i ran my sweaty palms through messy tangled hair i was a nervous schoolgirl at the science fair i smiled hard with extra teeth so i could hide the way the lump in my throat despised this pile of paper mache the project baffled me, worked hard as i projected tinkered with chemistry, results were unexpected i felt fear in safety goggles, couldn’t calculate the quote maybe too much vinegar, maybe too much baking soda my volcano now she's holding her breath, she's swallowing her pride my volcano is a mountain of words that just got tongue-tied my volcano she's glorious, she's dangerous, she's dormant and she's still my volcano if you wait ten thousand years, she might just tell you how she feels i press my legs to chest, my knees cradle my ear i'm an anxious woman, stretching my neck toward mt. ranier i whisper soft with extra air so she can hear me say i feel you bubbling underneath, i feel it every day i am no longer shocked by the lack of an eruption one day i will know, but for now there's no relief in self-destruction for birds are nesting in her nooks, and humans hike her trails i feel kinship with a mountain that chooses not to melt DRUM VERSION HERE kite in the sky girl on the ground that is you and i not the other way around it started out as play, i ran every which way for your flight unraveling string, but at the same time holding it tight always overcome you know you can depend but what if I succumb to my battle with the wind now i wait for the day, i hear you say these words i'm not really a kite, i think i just might be a bird snake skin is what i've been living in no appendages or opposable thumbs just a head and tale that won't stop spinning snake skin is what i've been living in just wide eyes and a poisonous tongue and i don't even know where all this venom came from and it's so damn sad losing all you thought you had and it makes me weep cause i just wanted to keep my snake skin so bad snake skin is what i've been living in my muscles clench and i might bite but it's my only protection snake skin is what i've been living in swallowing more than i can chew just gotta learn to let it move through
summer turned to fall before we knew it
since the day i got the call we’ve been fighting through it though i am in need of sleep and peace of mind you are the beat i keep my rhythm, my rhyme my time is your time my wind is you chime a smile hits your face and it warms me up like sun i’m thankful for this place when i think of how far we’ve come sometimes it takes some time sometimes it takes a fall to realize we’ll be fine if we have each other, we have it all
i keep pressing the button that takes me down to level c
and i laugh out loud because level’s a word that is used ironically cause it may as well be a bucking bull or a ship in the see with a hole in its hull i keep hanging on and pray for the day you can be level with me pray that you’re level with me, it’s just a matter of time before the revelry arrives, with your peace of mind you can find me here, i’ll just be walking the line until the day you are free and level with me my eyes they are tired, and my heart is lonely and my clothes smell like hospital my collection is growing of those visitor stickers peel them off and stick ‘em on the wall but i wait every day and i walk to a well full of love that we made and i fill up my pail i just hang on and pray for the day you can be level with me
just a junkyard dog trying to stake my claim
confined canine, collar and chain i can smell for miles, but no one would know got no tail to wag, got no room to grow just a junkyard dog, and it just ain't right practice my bark, just never my bite and if you were to tell me, i just wouldn't believe that the sharpest teeth were named after me just a junkyard dog, they got me on a leash they keep my alive, give me just enough to eat when i'm just about to starve, and die all alone they throw me some fat and watch me gnaw on the bone just a junkyard dog, i'm starting to use my wits cause there's gotta be more to life than sleeping where you shit got a bright idea, yeah it's common sense gonna dig a big hole right under the fence just a junkyard dog, and i got no excuse cause i'm skinny enough to ditch this noose i'm ready to go, but still I wait cause there's no way to know what's beyond that gate just a junkyard dog, the wolves would be ashamed i stopped howling at the moon cause it ain't the one to blame i sit here with the chickens cause i'm scared to be free just a junkyard, and that's what i'll always be you were a red light that stopped me right in my tracks
when i was flying through the crossroads no yellow in between, quick change from red to green you made me move, you made me go you taught me to switch gears and now the road is clear, we let go of the brakes i'll drive with you my dear, and we'll collect souvenirs love is all it takes i picture you and me, two little girls at sea digging our heels in shifting sands baby don't cry those tears, there's enough salt out here we hold our breath, we're holding hands i'm learning how to tell when the next wave will swell anticipate the breaks i'm willing to dive through, long as i can pop up with you love is all it takes i ain't going anywhere, you can quote me girl, i said it if something tries to break us, just trust that i won't let it i don't need a judge to tell me that i'm wedded to you you never have to worry, you never gotta sweat it i told if you picked me you never would regret it i loved you when i met you, i'll love you til the credits roll through love, love, love is all it takes we run holding hands to two open swings
i pump my legs slowly, hold tight to the chain links blocking the light, i look up in the air scream honey, are you sure you're alright up there? you say i'm having a blast, get up here right now i yell back i'm tired, and i don't know how for days straight, i wait, trying to gauge where you'll be when the clouds cave in so you can land on me there's a ring around the roses on our own playground there's nothing but earth and sky for miles around and i say, oh how fun, let's reminisce you say, i've never seen a place like this and i say, it's common as apple pie you say, i know you are, but what am i next we head over to tetherball poles i wait on both sides, while you play both roles there's no way to lose, there's no way to win so i sit wondering when i'll get to sub in you hit it so hard, i wince and i brace cause i'm scared the ball's bound to smack me in the face it'll fly off the handle if you play too rough leave you bored with just me, cause i'm not enough when we finally take a break in the day we take turns making a pb and j i spread mine thin, cause i hate a mess and you pour it on thick, cause you love the excess can’t ascertain your explanation that we are just friends and nothing more i feel the same relief and frustration that one feels when slamming a door you make me happy and sad at the same time you make me feel good and bad at the same time you remind me of a deep blue sea so beautiful and scary you attract me like a battery pushing and pulling polarity |
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