if this will ever get better it will surely get worse who says what, when, where, who calls who first is hope even worth holding or do i wipe it off my hands the situation paces restless in the places that it stands i watch with aching despair from my own bird's eye how can i bring you air without losing my sky you threw up your borders i just drew a line will it trace back to you or erase over time i fly like a phoenix, i hover over your mule as it thrashes its hooves in a sorrow-full pool i know only to rise now so i can't dive back down and besides, if i tried we both surely would drown i didn't dig a grave or burn a bridge, i broke a cycle the life you gave i yearned to live, the alternative was suicidal it was never what i wanted - to be a self-inflicted orphan now i lay awake haunted by a cursed, reversed abortion
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i picture the scene between me and you
sitting motionless in this living room it’s a terrible thing to test the strength of blood-glue but i don’t wanna lie, guess it’s best to tell the truth i ain’t sorry for being what i am i am sorry if it’s not what you had planned we learn to hate the things that we don’t understand i am what i am i picture the pain in your eyes as i confess but the fact remains i gotta get this off my chest hope it won’t stain when we start to clean the mess i fear the worst but i am hoping for the best when my grandpa died, i think he might have taken happiness with him everything turned gray, colors washed away god refused to listen when my mom and dad finally got so sad they had to end their union it opened up my eyes, made me realize they are only human people say that love is the only answer but i know they’ve got to be wrong because this love’s my only question where is my love, why is it gone? when i left my home, i felt so alone fair weather friends turned their backs such a scary thought to go from having a lot to living out of plastic bags now i feel so strange and i know it will change who i am forever knocks the wind from me, brings me to my knees turns me into a beggar no one wants to be a captain of a sorry sinking ship cause when it starts to sink, you think do i gotta go down with it? no one wants to be the bearer of incredibly bad news cause when you’re the one dropping the bomb you’ve got everything to lose what if three years turns into thirty-something? what if all you got was a whole lot of nothing? what if thirty-something turns into three kids? and you screw ‘em up just like your parents did? no one wants to be the writer of a book that’s never read all those words once full of life may as well be dead no one wants to be the bad guy, baby wouldn’t you agree? honey you’re so good, i guess the bad guy’s gotta be me
you're crazy, you're lazy
that's not a good match there are holes the size of lies you're trying to patch by try, i mean deny (never do it, never do it, do you) and by try, i mean ignore and by try, i mean get by and by try, i mean you stopped fighting for you should just give up you should just give in you should just cut the cord if you can't find the end if you're playing a game that you're not trying to win you should just give up and give in you're hollow, you wallow in pits of despair there's pools filled with sorrow you're trying to repair by try, i mean deny (never do it, never do it, do you) and by try, i mean ignore and by try, i mean get by and by try, i mean you stopped fighting for Verse: root C F E C Chorus: root Am B C (end on G) my mom, my dad made sure i had the things they never did they worked so hard, they just ignored everything but their kid years went by, i never noticed years went by, i couldn’t see the only thing holding them together was me in the house of leaves in the house of leaves my dad, my mom they tried so long to make it seem okay when something hurts, it just won’t work, it’s hard to live that way years went by, they finally noticed years went by, they finally caught on the only thing holding them together was gone in the house of leaves in the house of someone always leaves i’ve had enough, enough your daddy used to drink he used push you around chase your little sisters, knock your mama down he would stay out late driving out to the bar you were just a little boy, oh, he made you wait in the car it’s in your system now, it’s in your blood it’s an addiction you can’t get enough need intervention cause i’m starting to see you’re starting to love that bottle way more than you love me and i’ve had enough, enough my mama couldn’t sleep, she worked hard to pay the bills and one day she just gave up and give in to the sleeping pills yeah, they closed her eyes – yes, they kept her eyes shut i was just a little girl the day my mama never woke up it’s in my system now, it’s in my blood it’s an addiction i can’t get enough need intervention cause i’m starting to see these tiny little pills, oh, they’ve got a big hold on me and i’ve had enough, enough we started out wrong, we started out behind but i will not pass this on to no child of mine we will do it together, babe, or i will do it alone there will be no addiction welcome in my home it’s in our systems, i know, it’s in our blood it’s an addiction but i’ve had enough need intervention cause i’m starting to see it’s time to break the cycle, oh, before it breaks me break it with love, with love |
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