One of the lingering feelings surrounding my mom's death is guilt. In my better days, I know I did my best. On my not-so-great days, I am destroyed by all the things I could have done better. Guilt is not a productive emotion...it's just a reminder of what a shitty person you are with no gentle, redeeming reminder of how to be better. This is my first attempt at telling grief to fuck off.
1. you really got ahold on me
ooh, you sink your teeth
are you ever gonna give me relief
or do i gotta pry myself free
you're wearing out your welcome
i don't pretend to know where you really belong
i'm sorry for giving you the wrong impression
but guilt get gone
2. you really set a still steel trap
you and i go way way way back
are you ever gonna lift that latch
don't you know i got a life to catch
It's heeeeeeeere! You can now pre-order the new album Lights Out on iTunes for only $3.99! That's practically free! By pre-ordering, you'll get the album for SUPER CHEAP, and you'll receive an advanced download track for your listening pleasure before the official release date.
Remember how we used to call DJs and request songs? Pre-orders are the new version of that, and they REALLY help artists create a buzz for their new material. Even if you don't typically stream or pay for music online, please do me a solid and pre-order the album. It's the equivalent of one coffee run. I don't expect you to love me more than two trips to Starbucks, but I'm hoping praying wishing you can help me out with a Level 1 Starbucks kind of love.
As many of you know, my upcoming record Lights Out* tackles the idea of loss in many forms: loss of life, loss of love, loss of friendship, etc. My mother's death a few months ago has been the most traumatic loss of my life to date, but it is already shaping me in important ways. Through the process of writing about grief, I'm discovering all the ways I can personally use loss as a tool for growth and resilience. I'm also hoping to foster a greater disucssion about how society/humanity could evolve by sharing, acknowleding, and relating to each other's personal stories about loss and trauma. We all try so hard to normalize and be "fine." What if we stopped doing that so much?
I recently started a project called "Through A Lens of Loss" on my writing blog. I hope you will consider it a companion piece to my new record, as both collections are processing the very same experiences. Just like the music, I hope the entries are healing or at least thought-provoking. I'm also eager to hear your stories, so don't hesitate to drop me a line.
*Lights Out is available for pre-order on May 25th.
We're finishing up the brand new music video for Surrogate (first single of the new record) and we have a tiny bit of room for more footage. If you'd like to be in a music video all about sisters, now's your chance. Better hurry! Submissions can be sent (or dropboxed) to the email address below. We want footage of sisters who love each other doing pretty much anything! Dancing, shopping, singing, hugging, laughing, crying - anything goes! Tell your sisters, daughters, aunts, nieces and help spread the word to anyone who may be interested! We will accept both old home video footage and new smart phone footage...we just ask that you turn your phone/camera horizontally.
Exciting news peeps! I was recently selected as Honorable Mention for Telluride Bluegrass Festival's Troubadour songwriting contest! Obvi it would have been great to go compete as a finalist in front of bajillions of people, but I'm cool with this too. There are so many amazing songwriters out there, and I'm happy that someone out there cared enough about my music to think it was honorable and mentiony. From now on I expect you all to call me Your Honor. You understand.