Lyrics:
1. i've cried onto a casket
i've seen the scenes and seasons change
i've spread my share of ashes
over the ocean and down the drain
i spilled on you my secrets
i drew upon you all my dreams
each night listening to crickets
sing their song til morning

CH:
ooooh...

2. mother nature's coming at me
speeding down a westbound track
hanging out a boxcar swinging
a slow motion baseball bat
my highest hopes for you just showed up
crashing the party of my guard
and i know whatever goes up
is coming down, baby, twice as hard

CH

3. i'm angry at my worst
i'm struggling at my best
to find words to fit this verse
for what's happening in my chest
of course i should have seen this coming
i should have never picked your name
like a River, life keeps running
washing away what never came

CH

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Verse: C#m B A G# 
Chorus: C#m G# A B // mess = G#  // end on G#

1. guess i was sweet on you
since before i could tie my shoes
since before i could feed myself
before i learned to trust someone else
grew up thinking it was okay
that i could trust whatever you say
didn't know what you were feeding me
now i'm filling in the cavities

cotton candy kind of love
never ever filled me up
we were spinning in your truth
cotton candy kind of pain
just a couple grains of sugar cane
and a whole mess of blue

2. guess i just wanted more
tired of living in your metaphor
tired of caring bout what you think
tired of hiding that i like pink
woke up wishing it wasn't true
watched the air fall out of you
it took the air right out of me
and i'm still licking you off my teeth

cotton candy kind of love
never ever filled me up
we were spinning in your truth
cotton candy kind of pain
just a couple grains of sugar cane
and a whole mess of blue

guess i was sweet on you...

cotton candy kind of love
never ever filled me up
we were spinning in your truth
cotton candy kind of pain
just a couple grains of sugar cane
and a whole mess of blue

Verse: Gm7 C7 Gm7 // C7 Gm7 C7 Gm7
Chorus: D7 C7

another unarmed black man 
lying dead in the sun
another flag-hag pigskin patriot
walks fast past the homeless veteran

what the hell do you stand for?
what the hell will you fall for?
what the fuck are you waiting for?
does a cat got your tongue?

another ar15 minutes
another thought, another prayer
another nra-hole politician
too tightly tucked into bed to care

another brown child in a cage
while an orange man turns tricks
you turn a blind eye to grabbing pussy
do you like to watch him suck dictatorships?

you wick away the water
before you step out of the shower
you lather on the lotion
for about a thousand hours
 
i soak up these scenes and small routines
all the little things you do
just when i thought you gave me everything
you give me something new to love about you
 
you love cheese enchiladas
and candies with words written on them
you make sure i’m tucked in tight
before you leave me in the morning

Capo on 1, chord shapes:
Verse: Em C D
Chorus: Em C D B7

the doctor took a photograph, she wore a hospital gown
he explained that her brain was trying to take her down
they quieted the cancer, they tightened her screws
i took a tongue depressor, i took the abuse
 
someone should warn the surgeon he’s not alone
her mind’s a clenched fist with a sharp knife of its own
it’s hard to feel light in a waiting room of whispers
i sleep heavy every night. something's wrong with this picture
 
i stare at the negative, go to the darkest places
who are these strangers, i can’t make out their faces
as far as i can see, now as far as i can tell
my life’s an empty frame, shaking crooked on a nail
 
the police took a photograph just outside of town
of his truck and his luck and his wife and his life turned upside down
emergency rooms now a stain in my head
i leapt for the living there, i wept for the dead
 
who could have warned the wind, that the heavens would steal the air?
what god would pound this gavel, leave a family in despair?
it’s hard to hear the love in self-serving scripture
i sleep heavy every night. something's wrong with this picture

Verse: A C#m Bm F#m E
Chorus: F#m E A F#m E A 

the battery died, that's all
but I leave it on the wall
cause her hands are too
beautiful to burn
still I can not unwind
a clock that will not tell time
cause its gears refuse
to move and turn
 
and i don't know what to do
with how much i miss you
i don't know where to put that ache
so i pray for the clock to tick tick tock
and i wait, and i wait, and i wait
 
the shock clocked me in the head
made me wish i were dead
no not dead, just nothing
and nothing more
they're trying to call the fight
i'm trying to act alright
but I see stars
and i'm drooling on the floor
 
and i see her in my corner
thinking, God I tried to warn her
i see her faith in me start to die
So i crawl on my knees
beg please please please
let me try, i will try, let me try

Verse: Cm G# D# A#
Chorus: D# G# // Cm A# G# G#m D# G# D# (A#)

darling love was never the question
i have more than enough and so do you
darling love is the only answer
when people ask us how can you
 
tolerate hanging around this pain

don't you hate when the wind blows
i will wait with you and catch the rain
hold out our hands and see what else can grow
 
darling leaving is out of the question
i'll do my grieving right here with you
let them whisper let them have their opinion
just let em talk when they ask us how can you

​my love, once a chameleon green
changed shapes, fought hard not to be seen
shrank into a shallow shamrock dream
seeking out a four leaf clover
 
my love, once a jazzy blue
learned songs and scales it never knew
it sought the sky but stuck like glue
to an uncertain ocean lover
 
i've taken to the color wheel
to repaint the walls of how i feel
my canvas is a heart that needs to heal
but aren't all works in progress works of art still
 
my love, now a honey gold
smacks of sweetness somehow subtly bold
rises sunny to thaw out the cold
setting with a gentle hover
 
my love, now a crimson red
bleeds deeper than it's ever bled
as plump as kissed lips, freshly wed
fills to the top and spills right over

*co-written with Veronica May
(in standard key - different than recording)
​Verse: ​C Am Dm G  // C Bb A Dm  G G7
Chorus: F C Am Em F // F C-B-Am Dm G C
Bridge: Em F Em F G // C E7 Am C // Dm D7 G G7
Last Chorus: F C Am Em F // F C-B-A7 Dm G C // Dm G C

somewhere out in Colorado upon the plains
thirty miles east of Denver where it barely rains
there's an old abandoned house down on fetzer st.
where music used to rise out of the ivory piano keys
flower patterned wallpaper withered all away
grandpa's black boots faded all to gray
closet full of dresses that grammy always wore
and a square cut in the carpet leading to cellar door

beyond the cellar door
the shelves are all reserved
for rows and rows of mason jars
filled up with preserves
the memories remain 
though life lives there no more
bottle up, just like the jam beyond the cellar door

grandpa played the fiddle though his fingers were too wide
mama sang with grammy side by side 
now the air is still and stale, the fiddle's in its case
ain't it sad how so much nothing can fill up so much space
seven in the morning, 1959
breakfast on the table, the house was in its prime
grandpa zips his black boots up to start his daily chores
while grammy places another jar beyond the cellar door
 
like the square cut in that carpet
there's two now in the ground
rows and rows just like those
just like any other town
i know my time will come
and i wonder what's in store
beyond this life
beyond the grave
beyond the cellar door

come and get some love, come and get some love from me
come and get some love, come and get some love
i’m giving it away, yeah
i’m giving it away, yeah
 
i know it’s hard to put yourself in charge
of your own bleeding heart
just give it time my friend
allow your wounds to mend
and you can let the healing start
until then…
 
if you need love in the meantime
come and find me
i’m giving love away
 
i know it hurts to find out what you’re worth
but you are worth more than you know
open up your fists
let go of all of this
and give love a place to grow
until then..
 
the house that guilt and anger built
will topple and the pain will wilt
the sadness you’ve been holding onto
it will soon all be gone too
 
come and get some, come and get some, come and get some love