Category: Divorce - LINDSAY WHITE

LYRICS

People often ask where they can find lyrics, so I compiled 10+ years worth of songs into one location! I even included some of the tunes I consider to be hot garbage clunkers, just for the fun of documenting the journey. If you'd like to support my songwriting, please download my music on iTunes, add songs to your Spotify Playlists, subscribe to my Youtube channel, and/or purchase physical copies of CDs wherever possible. These contributions help me sustain my career as an independent artist.

Walking Away

10/24/2010

i let you say your peace
now won’t you give me mine please
i never uttered a bad word
i never let my hard freeze over
turn your ear to me
let me say what i need to say now
your thoughts fall on me fiercely
but i will love you anyhow

i am walking away
i am walking away
you can choose to stay here
but i am walking away

yes i caught you off guard
and i caught myself red-handed
but you weren’t the only broken heart
how could i have known
how could i have planned it
turn your ear to me
let me say what I need to say
i am setting you free
by walking away

Who Needs to Be Happy Anway?

8/3/2010

go fuck yourself, you scream through the line
and all i can think is i haven't heard your voice in such a long time
i hope she hurts you just like you hurt me
she's gonna rip out your heart, make you feel unworthy

and when she does, don't come running back
cause this time i won't let you get away
you don't have to love me back
who needs to be happy anyway?

i'm by myself, you cry through your tears
i never let anybody else in, it's lonely in here
you broke my trust, i'll never believe you
you're gonna get what you deserve, you're gonna get yours
you know she will leave you

It Seems

6/24/2010

some days it seems like the rain ain’t gonna let up
it keeps coming down harder and harder
some days it seems that i’ll never find my way back to your well,
well i hope that thought don’t hold water

i know you’re not dead, but it seems that way sometimes
inside my head
i know you need space, but please don’t forget my face
i won’t forget you

most days it seems like I’m finally smiling on the inside
and i wish you could be happy for me
even though i don’t feel blue, all I can do is think of you
my smiles make me guilty

Whatever This Ain't

3/13/2010

put my hands in your hair
man i swear i heard you purr
now i see foolishly
you don’t care whose hands they were
all those times your unkindness
made me feel less than less
washed a way with one whisper of your sleepy breath on my neck

i’ll put whatever this is out of its sad little misery
i’ll throw a new coat of paint over whatever this ain’t
i’ll put to rest any hopes for the best, given our sad little history
stop beating this horse, cause it’s dead and divorced
and get on with my life for a change

i was sharp, pushed too far
you were flat, holding back
out of time, out of key
what a waste of a melody
it’s the end now and i’ll grieve
but i prefer this to another reprieve

Colder Feet

2/24/2010

left the key out on the dresser
sat down and cried
couldn’t make myself write the letter
that said goodbye
two toothbrushes in a coffee cup
there’s just one now
i’m sorry for the way i screwed things up
everywhere you turn you see damage done now

i just want to tell you one last thing
you were my shoulder, my best friend
wish i could have saved you from this pain
wish my feet were colder back then

empty bottles on the counter
broken pictures in the hall
i’m sorry that you’re angry, you should be
you probably don’t want to see me at all
big ol’ bed taking up too much space
much too big for one now
i’m sorry for that sad look on your face
everywhere you turn you see damage done now

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Shitstorm 2009

12/19/2009

when my grandpa died, i think he might
have taken happiness with him
everything turned gray, colors washed away
god refused to listen
when my mom and dad finally got so sad
they had to end their union
it opened up my eyes, made me realize
they are only human

people say that love is the only answer
but i know they’ve got to be wrong
because this love’s my only question
where is my love, why is it gone?

when i left my home, i felt so alone
fair weather friends turned their backs
such a scary thought to go from having a lot
to living out of plastic bags
now i feel so strange and i know it will change
who i am forever
knocks the wind from me, brings me to my knees
turns me into a beggar

Tried

12/15/2009

tried to do the right thing
tried to do the wife thing
i tried to wear that diamond ring
tried to do the wrong thing
tried to do the strong thing
i tried nearly everything

what do i try now?
what do i try now?
how hard i cry now
guess it’s goodbye now

tried to do the right thing
tried to quit pretending
i tried to find a song to sing
tried to do the wrong thing
tried to do the longing
i tried nearly everything

Used to Be

11/13/2009

i’ve been staring at a picture of myself upon the wall
i must confess i made a mess, don’t recognize myself at wall
i’ve been searching high and low on top behind and underneath
i look for ways to stunt my growth, look for reasons not to leave

cause i made a museum
filled it up with memories
but i can’t live inside a museum
of used to be’s

i’ve been popping pills like candy, i’ve been smoking too much weed
the past was fine and dandy, but the future’s what i need
i’ve been living like a statue, i’m afraid i’m gonna crack
you have roped me off with stanchions to protect the artifact

Handy Man

11/9/2009

you got your tools spread out on the table
you’re hoping that you’re able
to fix every single problem you get your hands on
but you’re tearing out your hair
you’re frustrated and scared
the woman that you love is up and gone

but you can’t fix a broken heart
your hammer and nails will only tear it apart
oh, handy man of mine
you can’t fix me this time

you got your sewing machine ready
your hands are nice and steady
you want to sew me back up like a quilt
but my legs start to shaking, my body starts aching
i can’t lay under here with all this guilt

you can’t mend a broken heart
your needles and pins will only tear me apart
oh, handy man of mine
you can’t fix me this time

no glue is gonna hold me
no clay is gonna mold me
into the happy lady you deserve
no wrench is gonna bind me
no drill is gonna rewind me
i’ve gotta find me first

you can’t mend a broken heart
wish i would have told you from the very start
oh, handy man of mine
you can’t fix me this time

Wall of Feathers

9/1/2009

i put up a wall of feathers
so it's so easy for you to break it down
i filled up a suitcase of nevers
no longer a word now, never's just a sound

i must like the pain of together
much more than the fear of being apart
sometimes i feel like a broken record
over over again and again and again stop breaking my heart
stop breaking my heart, stop breaking my heart

oh, a wind will blow
knock down our home
feathers will fly, and i'll wonder why
i never built with stone

i put on my pi's and your sweater
cause baby these days that's about as close as i get to you
i think of the good days when things were better
i think of the new ways that i could get through

i put down my weapons and surrendor
each new day beckons a clean slate
and if i kept them i would just remember
why it was i picked them up in the first place

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