ain’t nothing new today ain’t nothing profound to say nothing of consequence achieved nothing that i lost was retrieved but i came home to you and you came home to me that’s more than a lot of folks can say there’s something to being with you at the end of a nothing kind of day ain’t nothing crossed off the list ain’t nothing worth my unclenched fist nothing made work more than a check nothing made my head less of a wreck
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here comes the bride all dressed in white
and the biggest grin anyone's ever seen her wearing, it's a million miles wide a couple empty chairs cause you're not there but she's brave enough to pass them up because she knows love's waiting for her on the other side you won't see her smile on her wedding day walk her down the aisle, give her away you won't know her joy, hear her vow i am not a boy that changes things somehow here comes the bride, still quite surprised that the woman waiting for me just so happens to adore me and she wants to be my wife those empty chairs, they're hard to bear but there's love in the air and I'm still going to swear to love her for the rest of her life love is louder than any silencing i am not a boy, and that don't change a thing
she is a mother who gave me a father
her name is norma jean bill was a deacon after he quit drinking he married her when she was sixteen he moved her out west when the greatest depression chased them, they escaped by the skin of their teeth i watched him adore her, do everything for her he carried her purse, and he watched her sleep 64 times they circled sun til he shot off the earth like a rubber band gun her soul folded up like a thin paper plane waiting for takeoff to see him again the man of her dreams, the man in her dreams i’m a granddaughter who lost my grandfather my name is lindsay ann meaningless moments turn into memories he picked me up from school in a mercury sedan what I’ll most miss is the forehead kisses cause I grew up taller than my family tree he left me a lesson that kindness is best you can survive a hard life with no enemies 32 times we circled the sun til he shot off the earth like a rubber band gun i got no right to complain, no reason to cry he told me to relax, let the world go by the man of my dreams (repeat) the man in my dreams you wick away the water before you step out of the shower you lather on the lotion for about a thousand hours i soak up these scenes and small routines all the little things you do just when i thought you gave me everything you give me something new to love about you you love cheese enchiladas and candies with words written on them you make sure i’m tucked in tight before you leave me in the morning lately i’ve been thinking bout your skin sweet and soft and brown just like cinnamon daily daydream for night to come and stay i wanna feel your body take my breath away i’m painting pictures of you in my head dame i hang those pictures of you in my bed frame the moon looks so good on you, i’ll never see it the same the only thing you’d wear better is my last name i love to hear you say your m’s and o’s i love the way i feel you in my toes your loving’s like a well, bottomless and deep always touching even when we sleep i must have done something right in my last life to get to lay by your side i will not let you fall, never all the way down
my love, under it all, you will be safe, i will be sound life’s a tightrope, you gotta walk it a deadbolted door, we keep trying to unlock it honey, i’ll be your net if you be my key won’t you walk and unlock life with me? i will not build up my walls, never too tall for you to come in my love, inside it all, you will be safe, i will be open was it love at first sight? well it might have been
but like so many things, you don’t know what you have til it’s missing when you went away i hoped and prayed that it was not too late i’ll spend my life right by your side proving we were worth the wait i’ll be your lifelong love and your forever friend whenever life gets rough i’ve got a hand to lend i’ll be your tried and true until the very end i’ll be your lifelong love do i take your hand forever and stand right next to you it’s the easiest question i’ve ever been asked – i do every heart beat, i’m yours to keep with every promise that i make i’ll spend my life right by your side proving we were worth the wait
left the key out on the dresser
sat down and cried couldn’t make myself write the letter that said goodbye two toothbrushes in a coffee cup there’s just one now i’m sorry for the way i screwed things up everywhere you turn you see damage done now i just want to tell you one last thing you were my shoulder, my best friend wish i could have saved you from this pain wish my feet were colder back then empty bottles on the counter broken pictures in the hall i’m sorry that you’re angry, you should be you probably don’t want to see me at all big ol’ bed taking up too much space much too big for one now i’m sorry for that sad look on your face everywhere you turn you see damage done now when my grandpa died, i think he might have taken happiness with him everything turned gray, colors washed away god refused to listen when my mom and dad finally got so sad they had to end their union it opened up my eyes, made me realize they are only human people say that love is the only answer but i know they’ve got to be wrong because this love’s my only question where is my love, why is it gone? when i left my home, i felt so alone fair weather friends turned their backs such a scary thought to go from having a lot to living out of plastic bags now i feel so strange and i know it will change who i am forever knocks the wind from me, brings me to my knees turns me into a beggar tried to do the right thing tried to do the wife thing i tried to wear that diamond ring tried to do the wrong thing tried to do the strong thing i tried nearly everything what do i try now? what do i try now? how hard i cry now guess it’s goodbye now tried to do the right thing tried to quit pretending i tried to find a song to sing tried to do the wrong thing tried to do the longing i tried nearly everything |
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