Category: Grief - LINDSAY WHITE

LYRICS

People often ask where they can find lyrics, so I compiled 10+ years worth of songs into one location! I even included some of the tunes I consider to be hot garbage clunkers, just for the fun of documenting the journey. If you'd like to support my songwriting, please download my music on iTunes, add songs to your Spotify Playlists, subscribe to my Youtube channel, and/or purchase physical copies of CDs wherever possible. These contributions help me sustain my career as an independent artist.

Roses Are Dead

2/14/2021

1. Ii’ve been thinking ‘bout roses
one of nature’s designs
how they don’t stick their noses
in the business of dying
what I suppose is
when they fall from the vine
they’re just making room
for more things to bloom
when it’s their time

if roses are dead
and people die too
don’t worry your head
they’re just something new
the petals will shed i
t’s just what they do
only to wither
so they can deliver
life back to you

i’ve been thinking ‘bout thorns
how they’re sharp in your hands
how they give off a warning
how they state their demands
and the opinion i’m forming
i hope you understand
that pain’s just a part
of healing your heart
it’s all going to plan

Crickets

9/5/2020

Lyrics:
1. i've cried onto a casket
i've seen the scenes and seasons change
i've spread my share of ashes
over the ocean and down the drain
i spilled on you my secrets
i drew upon you all my dreams
each night listening to crickets
sing their song til morning

CH:
ooooh...

2. mother nature's coming at me
speeding down a westbound track
hanging out a boxcar swinging
a slow motion baseball bat
my highest hopes for you just showed up
crashing the party of my guard
and i know whatever goes up
is coming down, baby, twice as hard

CH

3. i'm angry at my worst
i'm struggling at my best
to find words to fit this verse
for what's happening in my chest
of course i should have seen this coming
i should have never picked your name
like a River, life keeps running
washing away what never came

CH

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I Wish You Were Alive

5/8/2020

1. every single night
you're the last thing on my mind
no use counting sheep
it's just you and me
and the memories i keep
every day i wake
mother farther away
no use wondering why
it's just you and me
and the longest wave goodbye

CH
the story didn't end
like i wanted it to
and i can't find a pen
to save your life
it hurts to pretend
anything would be different
if you were alive
i still wish you were alive

2. every time i breathe
you're the lungs in me
no use holding the inhale
it's still you and me
hanging crooked on the nail

CH

Cotton Candy

3/19/2019

Verse: C#m B A G#
Chorus: C#m G# A B // mess = G# // end on G#

1. guess i was sweet on you
since before i could tie my shoes
since before i could feed myself
before i learned to trust someone else
grew up thinking it was okay
that i could trust whatever you say
didn't know what you were feeding me
now i'm filling in the cavities

cotton candy kind of love
never ever filled me up
we were spinning in your truth
cotton candy kind of pain
just a couple grains of sugar cane
and a whole mess of blue

2. guess i just wanted more
tired of living in your metaphor
tired of caring bout what you think
tired of hiding that i like pink
woke up wishing it wasn't true
watched the air fall out of you
it took the air right out of me
and i'm still licking you off my teeth

cotton candy kind of love
never ever filled me up
we were spinning in your truth
cotton candy kind of pain
just a couple grains of sugar cane
and a whole mess of blue

guess i was sweet on you...

cotton candy kind of love
never ever filled me up
we were spinning in your truth
cotton candy kind of pain
just a couple grains of sugar cane
and a whole mess of blue

This Flame (Melt With You)

11/13/2018

Lyrics ("melt with you" portion attributed to song of the same name by Modern English)

fire’s coming round the mountain, babe, start running for the car
no time for family photo albums, records, or guitars
freeewheelin’ dylan was my savior but I cannot return the favor
i know them all by heart anyways
they’ll be blowin’ in the wind after the blaze

you’re the only thing that i refuse to lose
even driving toward death’s door, you’re my refuge
when the world stops burning, this flame will continue
and i’ll melt with you

smoke’s clouding up our eyes, babe, open your ears and try to hear me
they may not recognize our bodies but I’ve memorized your spirit
leaving life is really scary but skin and bones are temporary
my love for you’s the only truth that stays
it will be blowin’ in the wind after the blaze

you’re the only thing that i refuse to lose
even driving toward death’s door, you’re my refuge
when the world stops burning, this flame will continue
and i’ll melt with you

Red Today

11/11/2018

red today, i’m seeing red today

i’m seeing red today
not in an angry way
red like a cross that saves on disastrous days
or a heart that loves in fantastic ways
read like the cartoons when you’re searching for laughter
red like a curtain that falls from the rafters
at the end of a play, we all make our way off the stage

and i don’t pretend to be certain
but i’m pretty sure that curtain will rise again
it’s just a matter of when

but I’m seeing red today...

Pink to Blue, Red to Green

2/16/2018

i clicked the link that said add one to the basket
i didn’t think i’d be this young shopping for a casket
the whole thing was pink with pretty little flowers to match it
we watched it sink deep down in the grave that we paid for to stash it

in a way, the day she died, i did a little too
i’d have to say it was the day pink turned blue

when she was alive i’d get lost on a dime, broke down like a car
i tried to drive away so many times but never got too far
now i believe she’s giving me signs, i see ‘em in the stars
even though grief made me blind now i see her fine, she’s on my radar

in a way, she gave me the map, the key, and the gasoline
i’d have to say she’s paving the way for red to turn green

Daredevil Guardian Angel

12/12/2017

Verse: E A B7 E
Chorus: A E A E // B7 A E

a little knievel, a little james dean
a little of your mama, a little mr. clean
a little love and laughter and kindness too
that’s what i think a lot about when i think of you

charismatic conor kent
ever since the accident
i've been wondering why you came and went so quickly
sometimes this world just don’t make sense
it gives and takes without consent
you were heaven-sent and i’m hell-bent on keeping you with me
my wrinkles they were worth it every last one
my dare-devil guardian angel son

a little country, a little hang ten
a little let loose, a little hardworking
a little adventure, a little smile too
that’s what i think a lot about when i think of you

What Even is Life?

8/4/2017

is it a wall, is it a well, is it a building or a bridge?
sometimes it’s hard for me to tell what fucking structure even is
is it a snake in the grass, is it a flower in the weeds?
what does it take, what does it ask,
what does it give, what does it need?

what even is life?
just a place to live and die
find someone to love and say goodbye?
what even is life?

call me godless, call me faithless, call me a sinner, call me brainless
call me devil, call me rival, point to pages in your bible
preach of gold up in the heavens, warn of flames that burn in hell
go ahead, pretend to be an expert on shit you don’t know so well

what even is life?
just a car you don’t know how to drive
and you’ll never make it out alive?
what even is life?

is it kind of arbitrary but a little bit on purpose?
time is precious and it’s scary but it’s make-believe and worthless
are we ignorant, are we brilliant, are we fixed or are we fluid?
are we floating on forever, are we rotting where we’re rooted?

what even is life?
just a place that we call home
live together and die alone?
what even is life?

Ever Mine Ever Yours

7/24/2017

Verse: C F C G (end on C)
Chorus: F C Am Em F G (end on C)

you had a big heart that bloomed like a flower
you had a smooth voice that sailed like a ship
you had a strong spine built like a tower
you had a sweet smile just like a kid’s

ever yours, ever mine
you taught me how to wait until the scar turns to a shine
ever green, ever blue
the color of my eyes now that they won't be seeing you

i had a hard time when you caught that fever
i had a long cry alone in my car
i had this pipe dream you'd live forever
i got this feeling you did not go far

ever mine, ever yours
our souls outlast the dusty bones of death and dinosaurs
ever long, evermore
on a scale of one to ten, my friend, i miss you 94